Title: Hidden CrushPairing Nichkhun and wooyoungSummary: Wooyoung confess his feeling towards to nichkhun on the graduation day but nichkhun reject his confession, but one day they meet again seoul. do their feelings change? Read and Comment
After Wooyoung’s confession and Nichkhun’s rejection that afternoon, Wooyoung cried so hard all night long. He felt his heart was broken into pieces, but he still tried his best to understand Nichkhun’s act. His friend wasn’t a gay, so his reaction last time was reasonable. But still everything felt so painful when he realized that he couldn’t possibly meet Nichkhun again. His best friend must hate him now, that Thai boy must be disgusting with him now. He cried and cried until he fell asleep, hoped when morning came, his pain would be reduced a bit.
Since that time, Woyoung decided to disappear from Nichkhun’s life. He tried to forget his feeling towards the Thai. He studied so hard and finally he successfully received at the best universities in Seoul. He decided not to often go home when the holidays arrived because he wasn’t ready to meet Nichkhun or dealing with all of his old memories in his city. Wooyoung even deliberately never took part in every event his friend gathered with so many reasons just for the sake of avoiding Nichkhun.
It didn’t feel like three years had passed away. Wooyoung enjoyed his life in Seoul. But he didn’t dare to be in love again, although there was a man who cared with him as long as he lived in Seoul. But still Wooyoung didn’t dare to expect something called love. He always assumed that Junsu just cared him as a younger brother, nothing more.
My mind was flying away to somewhere I don’t know. I could feel my heart is still beating every time I remember my meeting with Wooyoung last time ago. How could I being so stupid by asking him that silly question? Ahh, I hate myself..
I sigh heavily, turn up my head to see at the yellow sky above me. The Sun was already down the boundaries of the horizon, ready to be replaced by the moon. And here I am, in my high school football yard, sitting at the bleacher alongside the yard. I don’t know why I ran here after I met Wooyoung. All the things that stuck in my head are about my high school memories with him, and about the last time I saw him in our graduation day.
Ahh, that graduation day. The day I want to come back there as if I can do it. The day when I threw away Wooyoung’s feeling and became so evil to my best friend. I was so surprised and confused at that time. I was so surprised by knowing that Wooyoung had such that feeling toward me, and he was hiding it since our second year. And I was so confused with everything. I couldn’t love him back because I was a straight guy, and I had Yoona as my girlfriend. But I can’t deny, since Wooyoung left this city and lost from my life, I felt there was something also disappeared with him.
I realized that I missed my chubby boy, I missed his cheerful laugh, I missed his funny face when our small group tricked him, I missed his gentle gaze, and I really missed his embrace when I fell down and sad because everything wasn’t going like my will. I missed everything about him every time I walked in front of our high school, in front of his house, in everywhere I ever spent my time with him.
After many tortured months, I finally understood that maybe during all this time I never had realized if Wooyoung’s existence beside me was made me felt completed. I never confessed that was love, but I confessed that I need Wooyoung with me for the rest of my time, and makes my day brighter.
As if Wooyoung knows, during these three years I always felt a great regret every time I remembered that I had made a person who loved me sincerely, and I loved too, finally cot away and lost from me because my own fault. Every day I always thought by myself, as if I could roll back time to our graduation day, I would replace all his pain with smiles.
I take a deep breath again, face palming myself. I don’t know whether I must be grateful or be sad, because after my long waiting, finally Wooyoung comes back to this town, and we finally met again. After so many prays I said before, and after hoping for so long time, he finally come. Now, what must I do?
I don’t dare to ask about his feeling towards me, I think he must be forgot it after my rejection. But deep inside my heart I really want to know, and I still hope he saved it although just a little. Yeah, I must ask him. It’s my turn. It’s my time to tell him about my feeling. I don’t want to regret everything again.
So, without thinking anymore I run to Wooyoung’s house. I want to meet him and tell him that I love him..
Wooyoung was talking on his phone when his mother opened his room’s door and smiled to him.
“Wooyoung, your friend is coming to meet you, so I bring him here for you,” she said to Wooyoung and then allowed the guy to step into the room. Wooyoung frowned when he saw Nichkhun smiled to his mother while she left him and close the door. Nichkhun just kept to stand in his place and smiled awkwardly to Wooyoung.
Wooyoung suddenly snapped out from his shock when he heard somebody called his name over the phone, and he realized if he had been in the middle of talking with Junsu before.
“Ahh Junsu hyung, my friend is coming. I’m sorry, I will call you again later… neh, bye..” he took off his phone and turned his attention into Nichkhun who looked at him with sly gaze.
“Ah hi Khun, what’s the matter bring you here?” Wooyoung smiled to him, sat at his study chair. He pointed to his bed, allowed Nichkhun to sit there.
Nichkhun smiled, looks a little nervous as he sat in front of Wooyoung on the edge of his bed. “I just want to meet you Woo. It’s been so long since we met for the last time right? And you never came back although just for spent your holiday.”
“Ahh yeah, it’s been so long. I was so busy with my college, so I decided to keep stay there.” Wooyoung tried to sound calm while inside his heart, it was beating so fast. He still felt awkward with Nichkhun after their last day together, after his stupid confession.
“So, was he your boyfriend?”
“Mwooh??” Wooyoung looked at Nichkhun with confused gaze, didn’t understand who was meant by Nichkhun as his boyfriend.
“I mean, was the guy, who you talked with in phone when I came in, your boyfriend?” Nichkhun repeated his question carefully. He rubbed his back head, a habit he always did every time he felt nervous.
Wooyoung immediately shook his head. “Aniyo, he just my senior in my college. He helped me a lot since my first day in college. He’s like my big brother now,” Wooyoung laughed a bit, felt disbelief with himself because he was talked too much about Junsu.
Nichkhun just nodded slowly. But Wooyoung could see his expression changed calmer than before. He could see Nichkhun’s gentle smile grew in his handsome face.
“How about you Khun? How’s Yoona, do you still with her?” Wooyoung turned the table into Nichkhun. Nichkhun just smiled a bit and shook his head.
“No Woo. I broke up with her not long after our graduation. I’m alone now.”
Wooyoung felt his heart raced faster, wondered why the latter broke up with the girl he really loved before. “Wae yo Khunnie? I think you were deeply in love with her. I still remember you said that you couldn’t live without her,” Wooyoung chuckled, remembered every words Nichkhun said about Yoona when they were in high school. Although inside Wooyoung still could his pain when he remembered about their past, but he tried his best to seem fine in front of Nichkhun.
In the other side, there’s a war inside Nichkhun’s mind. He wanted to tell Wooyoung about the real reason if they had broke up because of him, but he also felt so afraid if Wooyoung would reject him.
“Khun? Are you okay?” Wooyoung’s question made Nichkhun snapped out from his daydreaming.
“Ahh yes Woo, I’m okay,” Nichkhun smiled to convince the latter.
~Yes Khun, it’s the time. It’s your time to tell him about your feeling. Just do it, now or never!!~Nichkhun heard someone whispered inside his mind. He nodded slowly to himself, took a deep breath and looked at Wooyoung with stern face.
“Woo, I want to confess something to you.” Wooyoung looked at him with surprised, but he kept silent and ready to hear everything came out from Nichkhun’s mouth. “The reason why I broke up was because my feeling has changed Woo. I realized that was not Yoona who I needed to be with me.”
“Wae yo? You said that you loved her.”
“Yes, I ever loved her madly. I did everything to get her as my girlfriend, and I got her in the end. I was so happy. But, I was wrong if I thought that I couldn’t fall in love with other people beside Yoona,” Nichkhun stopped a while, looked at Wooyoung who stared at him with serious face. “Yeah, I did that Woo, I realized if I was falling in love without I knew. And now, I can’t lie to myself anymore, if there was someone who I really wanted all this time Woo. I realized that my feeling toward Yoona wasn’t love, just an awe feeling. You’re the one who actually I love Woo, not Yoona.”
As Nichkhun ended his words, Wooyoung felt something hit his head and made him dumbfounded. He blinked his eyes in disbelief and looked at Nichkhun’s black orbs to find that he wasn’t joking around.
“But Khun, you rejected me before, when I confessed my feeling to you that day,” Wooyoung still looked at Nichkhun in disbelief. But his heart was beating so loudly, as if it could be heard by the whole word.
Nichkhun just smiled gently and touched Wooyoung’s cheek, caressed it gently. “I’m so sorry Woo, I’ve been so confused by your sudden act. I thought I was a straight boy, so how could I love you back? But everything seems different since that day, and I know that I’ve fallen in love with you without I expected before. During these three years, I was so regretted by reject you. You know, I always hope the time will roll back into our graduation day Woo, just to repair everything between us.”
“Why Woo? Do you have a boyfriend now? Can’t you love me again?”
Wooyoung kept silent and still looked at the Thai boy in confuse way.
“Is there no more chance for me to fix everything? I know I've been so outrageous toward you before, not care about your feeling, even hurt you. But does your feeling have away now Woo?”
“What Woo? Tell me, is your boyfriend has more everything more than me? Does he love you more than I do to you? Does your…”
Nichkhun’s words suddenly stopped when he felt Wooyoung’s lips pressed his lips gently. He frowned and looks at Wooyoung who smiled to him. “How can you change a lot Khun? Where’s your coolness? Where’s Nichkhun Horvejkul who had a high pride?” Wooyoung asked in low tone, and gave Nichkhun a questioned gaze. But Nichkhun could see a warm smile curled in his lips.
“I-I just don’t want to lose you again Woo, I don’t want to feel regret anymore..” Nichkhun took a deep breath and looked at Wooyoung’s black orbs.
“Paboo namja! If you become like this, do you still feel if I can reject you?” Nichkhun’s mouth slightly opened. He looked so confused. “I still loving you Khunnie, since we first met till now..” Wooyoung smiled again, his face blushed red.
Nichkhun couldn 't hold his happiness when he heard Wooyoung’s words. He immediately embraced Wooyoung and kissed his lips gently. He could feel love from every touch of their lips, and all of his regrets were vanished away. He let out Wooyoung’s lips and looked at Wooyoung’s eyes with loveliest gaze.
“So, I think I don’t need to back to our graduation day again?” Nichkhun grinned to Wooyoung.
But in surprised Wooyoung shook his head and looked at Nichkhun seriously, “No Khun, I think you are still need to come back at that time,” Wooyoung took a deep look at Nichkhun’s orbs. But suddenly he grinned naughtily when he saw Nichkhun frowned in front of him. “You still need to come back that time to bring me up my roses that you threw away before. That’s expensive you know!”